I just wrote a realy long diary entry and then my computer suddenly crashed and swallowed it up.

I can't describe how much it took for me to type that. I haven't been able to get the words out for days. I'm on the verge of tears here. I can't believe it.

I don't think i can do it again. Not now, i feel defeated. I'll have to try again, soon.

Everything is going wrong.

I'm. Sorry.