Wednesday, May. 29, 2002/8:52

letting go

I'm lifeless, and numb. I don't think i can fight anymore. I've let go of all hope and optimism. I just want to let myself be absorbed by this darkness thats overtaken me.

I stayed off school again today. I really don't see the point in making the effort to go anymore. I can't conentrate or listen, my minds always wondering. I spend most of my lessons just staring out of the window. I can see everhting going on around me, people getting on with their lives but somehow i just don't fit in. I just view the world through frosty glass, stuck in this damaging place.

I'm so exhausted right now. I wish i could just fall asleep...and never wake up. I'm weak and i'm sorry.