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Then
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Saturday, Jan. 31, 2004/11:49 pm falling standing still waiting then - falling in a split moment a second transfixed twisted and bound tipped forward - over the sterile edge of a knife through sanity rationality through invisible arms and veiled hope * first my head second my heart then the shallow surface ruptured skin dashed with bruises and knicks strands of auburn pulled from their roots eyes shut down to shadow screams calling through the grey a poisoned pose the strike blow. & slow advance of giving in * winter flooding seeping swimming up aching veins filling gaps with i c e unsteady floorboards struggling to hold heavy weight throw needles against the wood watch them shatter a sharp edge into the air /gasp/ breath pulled in so tight a corset gathered suffocating stemming my voice whispers turned to white nails dented over a clogged throat the last mouthful of life swallowed down with regret. * a fingertip caught on the spindle a drip seeping flooding crimson dashes across the floor. but no broken glass. just silence. |
* I could almost cry like tears of blood * and slowly it evaporates * without a scar without a trace * Sometimes too blue the moment passes * overhead so undetected * without default with no perfection * I could close my eyes & sleep forever * locked inside a secret silence * whisper deep into my head * Rewind erase and nothing remains * the way that nothing ever does |