Friday, Sept. 26, 2003/7:47 pm

wired

I have to go into hospital over the weekend.

It's because my blood test results keep coming back worse. My doctor rang earlier and told me she'd been discussing it with my diabetic specialist, it's the only solution they could agree on. My last one showed furthur worry over my liver function as well as kidneys, and even lower figures of sodium and potassium. Basically my organs aren't coping and it's partly due to my out of control sugar levels.

I don't want to go but i can't argue. I'm apparently in alot of danger at the moment and need to be stabilised. I'll be in the children's ward, and wired up to a glucose and insulin drip.

For half an hour after the call i couldn't stop crying. My glasses fogged with cloudy tears. Now i'm just blank.

I have to leave quite soon. I'm really dreading this. Specialists, machienes and needles. White bleached out walls with useless bright pictures and tall windows that show you what your missing beyond the glass.

Hopefuly i'll be back Sunday evening or Monday morning.

:(