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Then
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Tuesday, Jan. 06, 2004/10:43 pm reflections So burnt down, so swept aside, tiredweakexhausted just keep dreaming eyes scared to open trying to work out why where i am how i got here why i feel so ugly inside/and/out trying to look beyond the response into the source. experiences that have paved the way to where i am standing - never addressed or revealed. and no...not abuse, not what you might think. not dramatic, severe or shocking...just a little reason. Soon, perhaps, i will spill, complete this confusion. Ignore the physical responses. //strains/pain/attack/corruption// Search underneath, back through the past, back to the beginning. Where i began to see an unwanted reflection. h a t r e d alwayshere, alwaysdeep alwaysdestructive. |
* I could almost cry like tears of blood * and slowly it evaporates * without a scar without a trace * Sometimes too blue the moment passes * overhead so undetected * without default with no perfection * I could close my eyes & sleep forever * locked inside a secret silence * whisper deep into my head * Rewind erase and nothing remains * the way that nothing ever does |