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Thursday, Feb. 06, 2003/2:25 pm Anything But This I want to be given a broken heart An arrow through love Black eyed, red marked cheek A punch in the stomach. I want deception To be caught in someones trap Or treasured items smashed under your feet I want the adrenaline Of holding a loaded gun The high of standing ontop of a skyscraper looking down on busy streets ready to fall I want you to make me cry tears that hit me hard and flood my eyes I want to be cheated and lied to the same way i lie to everyone else Take everything of mine Leave me holding onto nothing I want you to steal from me. / I want to be jealous of everyone and everything Thoughts of stabbing people in the back I want you to see my face as i look at what i want to be I want freedom to leave inprints of bare feet in the sand I want an ultimatum either this or that time to make up my mind unable to look back A life changing decision a choice of substance I want to hate my best friend Charge her with wit secretly plotting her defeat I want evil revenge a consequence of mislaid actions I want you to tell me your real opinion Give in on me Before turning on your heel / I just want to be able to feel. Anything. But this. |
* I could almost cry like tears of blood * and slowly it evaporates * without a scar without a trace * Sometimes too blue the moment passes * overhead so undetected * without default with no perfection * I could close my eyes & sleep forever * locked inside a secret silence * whisper deep into my head * Rewind erase and nothing remains * the way that nothing ever does |