Monday, Oct. 20, 2003/11:06 pm

hayley again

tis hayley-sharpsecret

Saw claire yesterday i went down to visit her.Was shocked by how tiny she was,she looks so fragile. In her pjamas. She has been put onto full portions already because they thought half portions were too risky because of her diabeties. She isnt happy about having so much food at all, but is trying her best. She has gained some weight,mainly water weight though.

Shes so beautiful if you saw her you would be blown away by her eyes, they are so big and blue. Really long eye lashes. Shes stunning, but she looks ill. She looks like she couldnt be at home now. She is WAY too tiny and frail, and it scared me when i saw how small her arms were.

A girl in the ward purges in her own bedroom, and im terrified that claire will start doing something like that,i think she is scared of that too.

We talked about the people she was staying with and other things.It was so nice to see her. It was horrible having to leave, as i hugged her i could feel every bone in her back,and just closed my eyes , imagined the beauty in her that will shine out.im scared for her future

I walked out of the hospital and looked back to the windows,i saw her light on, as she stood there waving, it broke my heart, so sweet and left in the hospital alone.ill be seeing her again as soon as i can.

she should be back next weekend for a day or two. Just thought id say what i saw of her.