Wednesday, Feb. 18, 2004/8:46 pm

can't take it

How long is it going to take? -

how long until i can do it,

change,

move,

get better.

How many more blood spills and emergencies?

I have taken some insulin tonight, 21 units, which i now regret. I took it because i felt too faint to stand, and i regret it because of the guilt. The filthy, rotten, intence guilt that just won't leave. I feel much better now, easier to get up, easier to function but i shouldn't be allowed to. I purged dinner until i spat that vile taste of acid, and a hit of shakiness cloaked me whole.