I really don't know where to begin, how to explain the events of the last few days.

I've been updating my livejournal, it just seems easier somehow, and i've temporarily switched the five most recent entries from friends only over to public. So you can view them here.

I have to go. Mum is shouting at me for binging, for eating everything. I hate myself, i hate this, i hate hate hate everything i am and what i've become. A greedy, disgusting excuse for a person. I don't deserve to live.

I walk along blind, doing what i have to, and then suddenly everything bursts. I'm sorry. I need to purge and i'm going to cry.